Trashed By God

Thanks for this post. The Lord had you put this up at a perfect time for me. Because my mom drank our family into multiple bankruptcies I have a fear when it comes to financial issues. I do not try to live extravigantly but I become afraid when I cannot see in detail how every cent is spent or saved.

The last couple of years God has allowed some unexpected major repairs. While he provided for each of these, I was not in control and it scared me. I now know he was ripping my false hope away and revealing how he is trustworthy.

God has me in a season of trashing, teaching me to rely on Him even when the numbers on the bank statement are not where I want. Your post is a timely reminder of what God is doing in my life right now.
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My husband's infidelity, very short-lived but infidelity nonetheless. The most painful experience in my life, but the most productive too in terms of the 360 degree turn our lives took immediately after that. Glory to God because he can see the end from the beginning and because he disciplines those whom he loves. I am so grateful that he cares that much for me, for us to refine us in the fire of affliction, instead of abandoning us to our sinful desires and nature.

Blessed be the name of the Lord Jesus, the giver of life, hope and freedom.
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still in the process of being trashed. it's horrible, but i know that amazing things will come of it…

Thank you for this message today. Definitely feeling trashed. But each day I’m seeing the dust start to settle one spec at a time. God is definitely stripping me down. I feel exposed & uncomfortable. But ultimately I’m working towards embracing God’s love and the life God wants me to live.

"It will hurt like hell today…but will be the best thing that has ever happened to you in time. "

Yes, it does. It hurt so bad last night that I sat on the floor feeling so hurt and frustrated that I couldn't pray because I was afraid of the words I'd speak to God. He's ripping away my false hopes and showing me things about myself I don't want to see. Honestly, I'm wondering if I can be repaired now that I really see the depth of the sin. Looking at the way I spent the last 25 years of my life chasing a sinfulness within me to try and fill a space God should be in.

Right now, I can't honestly say I can really believe it'll be the best thing that happened. Hope isn't really high right now. All I know is that I'm (seven letter bad word) tired of feeling this way.
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i'm weary of embracing the trashing… although maybe that means i haven't yet really figured out what it means to embrace it…

sigh…

I was "trashed" by my church ….. several years have passed and I can say that I don't dwell on it all day anymore– so that is good!! When I look back …… perhaps my church had become my "g"od in some ways — I was a "Christian doing" … after much heartache — I now find great peace in the knowledge that I am a "human being" …. it has taken a long time but I (and my husband) want the community of a church again ….. we are so glad CP has come to Bellevue — thanks for the honest posts. Susan

oh i am living trashed. . .every moment of every day. at moments i see the beauty of the Lord in my utter brokeness and sometimes i am just ready for the Lord to redeem and restore.

three months ago my fiance told me he had been involved in using pornography for the past six months and then he broke off our engagement. i believe it is God's will for us to marry and that he Lord is asking me to wait for my man.

i am living trashed — but trashed has ((and continues)) to bring me to the end of me and to a place of full reliance on Christ. in my weakness He is proving to be so strong. . .

i am just starting to blog a bit of my story and what i am learning in the "trashing". . .livingfullypraisingloudly.blogspot.com
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trashed, dumped, trashed, dumped, trashed and then dumped again!

Love this post. I have been thanking God lately for "trashing" my marriage 3 1/2 months ago. It's the best thing that's ever happened to me…and my marriage. I am so thankful that God brought us to the place he did so that we would have no choice but to lean on Him. God is good!

I'm getting more trashed by the day, it seems. It started at the beginning of February when my husband came home and said he was thinking of leaving. Three weeks later, I found out he was having an emotional affair. He broke that off, we started counseling, but things just got worse between us. Finally, in May, we went to a MarriageRestored weekend and he confessed the affair started up again a few days after we started counseling, and it became physical. He was completely broken. I forgave him, and everything seemed like it would work out. God was in the middle of our marriage and family for the first time, we had plans to tell our story for the benefit of other hurting couples, we were going to start looking for a church.

Now, just a month later, he is again thinking of leaving. He says he thinks maybe things will never be great between us, he doesn't feel like doing the work of rebuilding our relationship, and he started a bank account of his own without telling me – just in case he moves out.

I'm hurting, I'm very nearly hopeless. But the entire thing forced me to finally confront my own food addiction and work on it. Praise God, during this time of trashing He has completely changed me in that area. The years of hurt and alienation it caused my husband, though, are harder to heal, and my husband is dwelling on them.

I don't know from minute to minute whether he'll walk out and we'll have to somehow explain that to our beautiful 9-year-old daughter. I'm ready to stop being trashed and ready for God to come in and FIX THIS. But He obviously has more work to do. It's a tough thing to embrace, even though I know it's necessary. Thanks for this post. It helps.